I keep trying to write something, and then giving up. Let us pray that I succeed in writing something semi-interesting and longer than just these two sentences.
With competition coming up in two weeks, my life is exceedingly busy.
Yesterday I had ballet class, variation class, jazz class/Lion King auditions, then rehearsal. All of that added up to more than four hours. Today’s five hours included, YAGP, Princess and The Pea, and Cats rehearsal.
While mom and dad were gone, my days were just as busy with dance, but on top of that, I had horses and dogs to feed. My life was ridiculously crazy. Ms. Shurrell was worried because she thought I should be getting more rehearsal time in, but it was utterly impossible. My day consisted of: horses, history, math, horses, dance, horses, worship practice, prayer meeting, sleep. There was barely enough time in the day to all of that, so adding more would not have worked.
In all of this, I’ve begun to lose the joy of dancing again. Anxious thoughts that my solos aren’t ready for competition yet and that my costume won’t get finished in time have been overriding positive emotions.
Today, though, was better. As I danced, I remembered that every costume that is made or dance that is choreographed is for me. If I didn’t want to do this, no one would be putting so much effort into working it out. Because this whole situation is hard, stressful, and tiring, its important for me to continue to remember and be thankful for such an awesome opportunity.
My goal for this competition is to be a light. Even if my technique isn’t always correct, I want the judges to be captivated by the dancing and story behind it.. to let God capture the audience through me.
Please be praying for me! I want to be anxiety and stress free so that I am open to whatever it is that God has prepared for me over the next, crazy two weeks.
